Essence: 22, licensed. California girl. Majoring Psychology&Deaf Culture Aspiring ASL Interpreter Native American, White, Black, Filipino. Published Writer. EMT Trainee. 3rd Year College Student Soon to be attending Biola Moving to Long Beach soon. Talk to Me I’ve struggled with self-harm for 12years+ and i still struggle, even though , its a conscious decision i have to make daily to want to cut myself. I’ve also struggle with Eating Disorders since age 11, so 11+ years. Ive been diagnosed with Bulimia Nervosa when 13 and then with Anorexia Nervosa when i was 16. I still currently struggle with Anorexia Nervosa subtype- purging. Some days are good others i just dont feel like fighting her because i hate my body so much. Im not in recovery even though i want to be. i still eat because i know i have to, but i sometimes compensate by over exercising, fasting, or occasionally purging my food. Regardless of the many Treatment Centers, Mental Hospitals, Hospitals, and Therapists, Psychiatrist, and Dietitians ive been to, this disease has proven difficult to overcome. My Diagnosis: Anxiety Disorder Bipolar Disorder type 2  Body Dysmorphic Disorder [BDD] Borderline Personality Disorder Chronic Depression Obessesive Complusive Disorder [OCD] Post Traumatic Stress Disorder [PTSD] The ED Directory LiKES: Skinny jeans, Vintage, Photography, Korean anything, Japanese anything, Trees, Dieting, Losing weight, Music, Singing, Dancing, Acting, Modeling, Depressing stuff, Bright colors, Reading, Headbands, Dresses, Skirts, Art, Quotes, Fashion, Shoes, Spongebob Squarepants, Models, Skinny models, Being skinny, Diet soda, Exercise, Making bracelets, Starbucks, Coffee, Gummi candy, Mochi, Sea food Pho, Nail polish, Eyeliner, Piercings, Asian guys, Mixed Asians guys, Jewelry, Misadventures of Flapjack, KPOP, JPOP, KROCk, JROCk, Country Music, Shorts, Purple, Green, Black, Cats, Rabbits. DiSLiKES: Weight Gain, Force, Eating disorders, Scremo, Being disrespected, Being Judge, Failing, Being lied to, Being single, giving into temptation, Purging, Fat, Carbs, Calories, Scales. Formspring Facebook Twitter - Follow @EscapingTheCage You follow, i follow back! :D ASK. Ask me anything you’re curious or unsure about. Don’t assume. Im pretty open and here if you want to talk! :] i have Facebook, Twitter, Plaxo, LiveJournal, Xanga, and YouTube.Tumblr (3.0; @beautifulcatastrophe3)http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4o4t2rm4H1qbjt25o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://makemestfu.net/post/23850701090/more-images-and-relatable-stuff">makemestfu</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a href="http://makemestfu.net/">More images and relatable stuff?</a></p> </blockquote>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23921532562http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23921532562Mon, 28 May 2012 05:34:17 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4fj3n8T051qjck12o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bestlovequotes.tumblr.com/post/23545547553/sometimes-it-is-not-meant-to-be-understood-but-to">bestlovequotes</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p class="tumblrize-permalink"><a href="http://bestlovequotes.info/sometimes-it-is-not-meant-to-be-understood-but-to-be-accepted/" rel="bookmark" title="Go to original post at Best Tumblr Love Quotes">Sometimes it is not meant to be understood, but to be accepted</a> | <a href="http://kristinay.tumblr.com/">Courtesy</a></p> <p>FOLLOW <a href="http://bestlovequotes.tumblr.com/">BEST LOVE QUOTES ON TUMBLR </a> FOR MORE LOVE QUOTES</p> </blockquote>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23600653335http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23600653335Wed, 23 May 2012 04:41:11 -0400<p>dietitian said i needed to gain weight,. Over the last 3 weeks ive put on 15lbs an i hate it but she says ive reached a healthy weight for my height..</p> <p>Pfft, im fucking fat dude! I want to lose the weight..</p>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23340749185http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23340749185Sat, 19 May 2012 04:56:44 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m43mu2nfj91rsgeh1o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23340373539http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23340373539Sat, 19 May 2012 04:37:17 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lep1xcftmu1qfhx0ao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23340105832http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23340105832Sat, 19 May 2012 04:23:49 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2wcvx4z4I1r65tveo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283508318http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283508318Fri, 18 May 2012 05:43:26 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lubnnl5SyC1r1h6nuo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://justlikeheaven1996.tumblr.com/post/23279355882">justlikeheaven1996</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><em><strong><a href="http://justlikeheaven1996.tumblr.com/">I invite you to my depressing world of black and white.</a></strong></em></p> </blockquote>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283472132http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283472132Fri, 18 May 2012 05:41:31 -0400<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://sodamnrelatable.tumblr.com/post/23282863874/13-year-old-bitches-who-thinks-theyre-cool-if-they-say">sodamnrelatable</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_llga1npPVw1qc9exr.gif"/></p> <p><span>via </span><a href="http://sodamnrelatable.tumblr.com/">sodamnrelatable</a></p> </blockquote>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283452300http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283452300Fri, 18 May 2012 05:40:29 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2lb8bWeFJ1r7z3vto1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283444192http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23283444192Fri, 18 May 2012 05:40:06 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m43zw5RmkO1qbpwzeo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221382417http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221382417Thu, 17 May 2012 05:27:06 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lx2v09DmA61r314mco1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://howtovisualizeyourweakness.tumblr.com/post/15086257206/i-know-its-sick-to-miss-it-but-i-do">howtovisualizeyourweakness</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>I know it’s sick to miss it but I do</p> </blockquote>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221376889http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221376889Thu, 17 May 2012 05:26:50 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_le7e96arbl1qbwvejo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221353278http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221353278Thu, 17 May 2012 05:25:39 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lxe2ci0JSH1r3k73wo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://funniest.1000notes.com/post/23220893647">the-absolute-funniest-posts</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p class="gone"><a href="http://you-will-love-this-blog-on-your-dashboard.ishowedyou.com">Follow this blog, you will love it on your dashboard</a></p> </blockquote>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221333193http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221333193Thu, 17 May 2012 05:24:38 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m41cptmVXj1qiday7o1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://underwere.tumblr.com/post/23221160969">underwere</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Looks like a fish</p> </blockquote>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221290524http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23221290524Thu, 17 May 2012 05:22:32 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lyg8sk19Q21qfwgn5o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029233175http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029233175Mon, 14 May 2012 03:50:51 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3vsvagQfR1r9qm8ro1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029212022http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029212022Mon, 14 May 2012 03:49:52 -0400http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029191486http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029191486Mon, 14 May 2012 03:48:54 -0400Anorexia: Don't eat, you'll just get fat. Cause that's what you are- fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat<br /> <br /> Binge: Come on, you deserve the ice cream and candy bars. It will make you feel better.<br /> <br /> Bulimia: Why the heck did you do that!? You don't want that sitting in your body. Not even a month of restricting can make up for that. Throw it up you wuss!<br /> <br /> Self Harm: You suck so much. You'll never recover. You'll never get better. Here's a razor, you'll feel better.<br /> <br /> Suicide: Everyone hates you. No one would care. It will never get better. Here's some pills, the pain will disappear. <br /> <br /> Recovery: You are beautiful. You are worthy. You are strong. You are wonderful. You will recover. You will get better. You are loved. So many care. Things will get better.<br /> <br /> ~Choose the voice you will listen to~http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029178267http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029178267Mon, 14 May 2012 03:48:17 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3zzkmrAqr1r0fx0po1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029146438http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029146438Mon, 14 May 2012 03:46:56 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m1a00cwzLa1qzpp8po1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029140372http://beautifulcatastrophe3.tumblr.com/post/23029140372Mon, 14 May 2012 03:46:40 -0400